Spoke too soon. Yesterday was another day lost in thought, lost in depression. I can seem to muster-up any feelings of joy.
We took our daughter to a large, kids-based, amusement park yesterday and I really had to force myself to stay present. Normally that's the type of day I would totally enjoy, but instead I just wanted to crawl back into bed.
This is gonna be a long ride.
Sorry for your struggle.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear it. I wonder, as the feelings of depression are coinciding with not texting L - could it be grief for a loss? That's the classic definition of depression after all. If you get back into contact with her, will you come out of it?
ReplyDeleteJust a thought. You don't have to be happy just because you're on holiday. OK to be sad. Take care
Ellen, there probably is a lot of truth in what you've said. But for right now (and that could change at any second) I'm holding back on contacting her.
ReplyDeleteI know I'm having a childish reaction, but for now that will have to do. Thanks
And thanks JBR