It's not that I don't want to share either of them, or myself. I've been trying to figure out what's going on with me and couple's counseling.
I was thinking last night (instead of sleeping) that maybe it has to do with me not knowing who to align myself to. But I don't know what that means. Here I am with two people who care very much about me, and that should be comforting, but instead it gives me some sort of anxiety.
However, I have to admit that after the two sessions we've had I have certainly felt better, closer to M. Because of our schedules, the two sessions were spread out over a month's time and during the time I've felt we've been doing this marriage-thing better, especially as it relates to raising our daughter. That's where alot of our issues/disagreements come from, we both have different styles/approaches and we want to be more united.
Maybe I need to give it more time. I'm hoping also that by talking about it with both L and M that some of my anxieties will be eased. Or maybe I just need to take an Ativan before our session??