I've been texting a lot with L this morning.
Me: I wish I had something pithy to say or a good reason to text, but I don't. Hopefully something will come to me today
L: You don't need a reason to text
Me: Just wish it was more tangible than simply wanting to connect
L: Just wanting to connect is really a good thing
Me: If that's the case then I've been good all along! Now it's just trying to figure out a way to satisfy it.
L: Well, I wish I had a magic wand and could fix it but we will process it together. Progress is being made. I know you would like it to b e quicker
Me: Not sure it's ok to ask, but....yesterday when I was lamenting about the power imbalance and hating that I'm the needy one, you said something along the lines that there have been things that you've gotten from me. Can I ask what?
Now I sit and hold my breath and think of the million ways she could answer this.......
Will she put me off and tell me that we can talk about it next Tuesday?
Will she tell me she can't?
Will she tell me to stop trying to do therapy via text?
Will she tell me we talk about this over the phone?
Will her response make me feel worse?
What I pretty sure she won't do is ask that dreaded-therapyese question 'Why do you ask?' I don't think she's ever answered a question with a question.
But maybe I/we should explore why I'm asking......