I probably come across as unappreciative of my relationship with L, and her support, but I'm really not. It truly means the world to me that she's so available to me. She told me yesterday that she tells me exactly what's going on in her head. She said she does that in order to mirror the behavior to me.
Our texting volley continues she answers my 'testing' question:
L: List is too long for text Tuesday we can go over it ok
Me: ok....I just keep repeating my new mantra 'L can be trusted', although I gotta tell you the 'list is too long' feels like an over-inflated brush off (sorry that probably sounds nasty, I don't think I mean it that way, feeling more like 'No, that dress doesn't make you look fat')
After sitting with that a few minutes I realize what a jerk I'm being....
Me: No need to respond to that last text, I'll put my big girl pants on and look at it the way you intended not the way I see it
L: Thank you, I intended it to be genuine and supportive, which is always truthful
Me: I know....I'll stop bugging you....just for today of course.