I've been wondering still why L (ex T) has contacted me. I haven't been obsessed with it, but I guess just trying to understand. The one thought that occurred to me is that she's keeping her distance because she still plans on continuing/reopening her practice. She mentioned it during our last session and said that she was hoping her new job would let her see clients. And if that's true it still sucks and to me, doesn't excuse her from pulling back from me, but I guess I could see some logic in sort of keeping boundaries in place.
Then I started to wonder 'would I actually go back to seeing her as a therapist', and I'm pretty sure the answer would be 'No'.
First, but not most important, logistically C, my new therapist wins hands down! She is literally right across the street from my shop. I was worried that her being that close would bother me, would just transfer, or start up obsessional thoughts towards her. But that hasn't happened....although that may not be entirely true, just recently, after starting to write this entry, a few thoughts have popped into my head. Sigh.....
Second, I feel better with C. I mean I feel like we 'do' therapy, and it's intense, and she's thoughtful, but after I leave my 90 minute session, the life isn't sucked out of me and I can function. It's not that it doesn't give me things to think about, but I am not totally lost in thought and immersed in therapy. I haven't had a therapy hangover....yet.