It still makes me sad. I mean I'm not in the fetal position drooling kind of sad, but I wonder why she hasn't reached out to me. Why was she so supportive and pretty available before, but not now? I can't imagine it was money, but maybe it's 'professionalism'?
I do pretty much like my new therapist C. I am different with her, atleast at the moment. I'm open with many of my crazy thoughts but I don't expect so much from her as I did with L. Maybe it's just too soon.
I foolishly have been reading some of my old journals. I was in such pain for so long. Today I read a little about my first few sessions with L. I was pretty much attached to her from the start, and I knew it.
I'm not sure if I'm consciously keeping C at bay or is it just growth on my part, not needing to attach to her as desperately as I did with L.
Part of me misses the intensity, I think