I think she said that nearly 90% of the people that come into therapy are looking for love and connection. Crap, I hope that is ok. She said it was. Oddly I think I feel safer with her than I did with L. And by safer I think I mean that I feel like she will follow through on what she says. L may or may not have meant things she said but quite often she didn't honor what she said.
C said she wants/hopes to be the one that sees me thru all this. She said that in her 30 years of working as a therapist she has never met anyone who was so hurt badly by 2 different therapists. Abandoned by 2 different people. She wants to be the person that stops this cycle for me.
I definitely still miss L, but it's also a very uneasy type of feeling. Like I know I shouldn't.
I also miss C in between sessions, and will start 'getting' thru the next couple of days until I see her on Wednesday.
I wish I could talk to her about hugs. Although I'm not sure I want them, yet. And I'm also scared of the rejection. What if it's a boundary of hers? Or what if it's just my L feelings and wants transferred to C? How do know what's real?