I miss seeing L today. Normally I see her on Friday mornings, but she had a conflict so we met yesterday instead. It was a really good session, very positive and I felt very connected to her. But this morning I was very aware that I was not going to see her today. I had couple moments of 'Normally I'm siting in L's office at this time on Fridays....' Nothing overwhelming, but I was a bit surprised.
Unfortunately it's now early afternoon and I'm missing her, like a longing. Due to another scheduling conflict next week I'll see her Monday morning. So it's not like I have to wait another week to connect with her, it's only a couple days. But somehow I don't find any relief in knowing that.
I know I could text her, and she'd be great about it, but I still struggle with why? Technically I'm in a pretty good place, so why the longing, why the ache?
The longing and ache, is likely because she is filling a void you have. It makes sense and I feel that way often, with Daisy. Next time, text her ... she absolutely supports it and I'm sure she'd understand.
ReplyDeleteI just wish I understood about the void and what will it take for me to stop feeling the ache and longing.
ReplyDeleteI did send her a text, and it's strange how just the act of rambling-on in a text and sending it to her helps me feel better.
It's been almost two days sent I sent it and she hasn't responded, but the funny thing is it doesn't bother me (too much). Maybe this attachment-crap is healing a bit??!
I think when you're "filled up", the longing will ease. But actually getting to that point? I don't know how or when! I'm glad you texted her, but am sorry she hasn't responded. I hope you have a good session (in a couple of hours)!
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