She changed the rules. She changed them without telling me. I thought she didn't get a couple of ranting-like texts that I sent so I resent them. After doing that twice, with two different rants she replied with 'You ok, I keep getting the same texts'
So she did get them but she's now decided not to respond to them. She's always sent some sort of reply or encouragement but now that's gone. She's gone.
Why? Has she now decided that she's been too available? Too supportive?
It seems like I am now officially slipping into a depression. The blah-like feelings have been increasing for over a month now and I can't seem to stop the slide. I was hoping that being away on a 2 week vacation would help, but in fact it's getting worse.
I continue living in my head and now I don't have an outlet for my crazy thoughts.
She leaves next Tuesday so I won't see her, or talk to her, or god-forbid text her until the following Thursday.
How will I get through this? I've started to have some extreme thoughts that are scaring me.