I want to tell you that I hate you for this right now, and at the same time I want to run towards you. I need you to be normal. I need you to read my mind. I need you to know when to offer me the world and when to hang back and wait for me to catch up.
Please don't be one of those people. I don't want to hate you, I want to trust you. But I know I'll never be able to forcefully silence the voice, and I wouldn't want to. But I don't want the voice to be right. Were you trying to convince me today, or were you being honest?
I also hate that I don't get tomorrow, I was not ready for today, it wasn't supposed to be about me today. And now because of that I'm thrown. I could ask for tomorrow back, I know I could, but the voice doesn't want me to, I think.
I don't want to be in this place. Do I keep myself in this place? That way I can avoid other things. Or is it valid?
Why to I attach other things to it? Why do I read into it so much? Am I looking for something, and I won't stop until I find it? Ah-ha, I knew you couldn't be trusted, I should have trusted my instincts. I mean, eventually everyone will screw up.