I'm not sure if I haven't been posting for the past week because I haven't felt the need to, I haven't wanted to, I've been too busy, or I'm avoiding something. Or maybe a combination of all of them.
The stuff with L really sent me for a loop, and I've lost some ground with her in the trusting department. Although, at the same time it's forced me to share things and talk about things that I probably never would have discuss if this didn't happen. I even said outloud the other day 'I'm not sure if I hate you or love you....'.
Intellectually I know that there's a huge benefit to having ruptures, especially when you can work through them and come out on the other side, and I'm hoping that's the case with this one. We've been talking about this over and over again. In fact I saw her 3 times last week, each being 90 minute sessions. And I think we've worked through a lot of it, but I know there's still more there, and I also know some things will just take time.
We exchanged these texts after this morning's session:
Me: Funny, I leave with a feeling of wanting more, but when I do get it I freak out....no wonder I need help
L: You're ok, all this will balance out at some point I promise. It's about accepting trusting and believing that you deserve it.
Me: Thanks...ya know I don't think I ever REALLY hated you.....although I still reserve the right to
L: That right is yours and it's ok with me
Me: Stop being so freakin' supportive
As for the ice cream shop, things are moving along. Who knew there was so much to do when starting a business??!!! Just in the past 2 weeks we've: started working with a marketing guy for our logo and website, attended a QuickBooks training class, attended a food handling certification class, signed a lease for a house, spoke with insurance companies, spoke with credit card companies, spoke with shipping companies, met with our ice cream distributor and assessed the layout of the shop, painted/decluttered current home....and I'm sure I've forgotten a few things! Oh, and held down a full time job while doing all this!!
We've agreed to a March 15th closing date, so the time is approaching fast. Initially we were thinking of an opening date of May 4th, but we're going to try and push that up by at least 2 weeks, maybe even 4 works. But there's still a lot to do between now and then, so for right now, along with everything else, it's a wait-and-see.