Should I tell L about this blog? And if I do, do I let her read it? Hmmm, tough questions....to be or not to be, that is the question? To make it a little easier, if I do tell her I know it would be for the sole purpose to actually have her read it, so I guess I really only have one question to ask myself.....Do I feel lucky?
Since I started this blog a few months ago I've wanted to tell her, but then I chicken out. Do I really, really want her to know exactly what I'm thinking about? Not sure. Especially because most of it is about therapy and my struggles with the therapy process. And what if I told her and she didn't want to read it, would I feel rejected? And what if she did read it, would that hinder me later on, or worse would I write in knowing and maybe wanting her to read it? Or how would I feel if she never read it again?
Man, not only do I need therapy for therapy, but I need a blog to write about my blog.
It's a tough decision, and I guess it depends on how much you trust your therapist, and how much of you you want her to see. I think if you trust her and you feel able to it is a great idea. My therapist reads my blog, which has been a real risk at times for me but also amazingly helpful in our process. She has found it helpful to read my write-ups of sessions as it has given her an insight into my experience of them.
ReplyDeleteThe great thing about my therapist though is that she will absolutely steer clear of the blog if I ask her to, so if I feel that a post is a little too vulnerable to share (unusual these days) then I can ask her not to read it. Usually I've just needed a bit of time to think it over, and I let her read it later. If you can trust your therapist this much, then I'd say go for it!