We've sort of decided that I will start seeing Celia twice a week. I truly like that idea although I'm certainly afraid of becoming too attached, too needy.
We talked a bit about me reading her my blog, and/or her reading my blog. I think I would like to let her. I think I'm afraid that I would be ashamed by her knowing me more. Maybe the writings aren't even that impressive, maybe she'll find them sophomoric, rambly, not of any value.
About 2 hours after I left I started to become anxious. I think maybe it had to do with either because I only had a 50 minute session or I was only gonna have a 50 minute when I go on Wednesday. However in reality Celia said I could decide on Wednesday whether I wanted a 50 minute or my usual 90 minute session, So why the anxiety? I tried to tell myself that my anxiety was not grounded in reality. But maybe it was/is the uncertainty?