I had my first FaceTime session with C, in fact it was my first FaceTime session ever. I was very nervous but it went much better than I thought it would. I thought there would be lots/too much silence, but other than the loss connection (she is in Mexico and service isn't that stable) it was ok.....well until the last 30 seconds.
I guess it could be called doorknob therapy, but it wasn't me that threw something in at the end, it was C. We're still talking a lot about L and past therapy relationships/experiences, and then also trying to lay some groundwork for what therapy with C will look like.
Anyway, she said right at the end 'That too much therapy is a concern that we need to talk about', then our time was up.
My first response was that she is concerned that I've been in therapy too long/too much. That scared me, like she was getting ready to speed this up and get me out the door. I thought of calling her right back or texting her but I know she's on vacation, and we haven't talked about the appropriateness of me calling/texting, so I'm gonna have to sit and wait, or more like stew.
On the other hand, she may be right, maybe I have been in therapy way too long, maybe I over think, and maybe I spend too much time on it?
Then it also occurred to me that maybe she meant that I am concerned about how long I've been in therapy? That sits a little better with me, but I certainly can't/wont convince myself that this is what she meant.
Crap, this will now roll around in my head for quite some time. I may bring it up to M tonight after I pick them up from the airport, but I don't think she'll be able to answer it either. I'm hoping just telling her will make me feel better and less obsessive about it.