Back at this all too familiar place, and the reasons for being here are the same as usual.  I haven't seen L in a couple of weeks and I won't see her until next Friday.  I feel angry, abandoned, alone, afraid......and that's just the a's!!

Of course none of it makes sense, and she's not real anyway.  If she really cared she would have made time,she would have found time. She would meet me halfway.  She would meet me on the weekend.

It's like one big temper tantrum, I know.

I know, I know....attachment issues, I didn't get what I needed as a kid, so I act out now......

I have a wonderful life, a very supportive wife, an amazing child......

Just can't seem to rationalize myself out of this.....blah blah blah