So I emailed Li. It was only a couple of hours ago and I don't think I regret it, at least not yet.
It's been almost a year, can't believe it. It sort of feels like you never existed, or maybe that's a defense mechanism. I miss you, but you certainly have continued to hurt me. Why would you tell me that we'd still have a relationship, why would you continuously reply to my occasional requests for contact in a supportive manner but never follow thru? I just don't understand. I still miss your hugs, but at the same time question there authenticity. We did a lot of good work yet it left me with additional crap too. Have been hoping to talk about this with you in person but trying to figure out a way to accept that this may never happen.
No response yet. Could have so much more. Was it ok to send? Wish I could have really, really expressed my hurt and anger, but I guess that would have been wrong.